Maybe I'm worrying too much about the finals. The hypertension almost traps meyself in the ego. Can't speak fluently and react properly to the outside world. The more I want to come out, the more helpless I feel.
Is decided to cook myself a big dinner. Food is always the thing that can make me happy when in sadness or hardship. Bought some ingredients from the Parkenshop this afternoon: eggplants, eggs, minced pork, potato, and onion. Will make one potato pancake for my roommate which he always says is his favourite, and will create some dishes to satisfy my stomach and mood.
Can't explain why these is happening, but one thing is for sure, that I want to be happy, and I want the people I care feel that I treasure them in my life.
Set aside the GPA thing for a while, and there are more things to be valued in my life. Life is beautiful. Those can't stay will be definitely loss, even you try the best to save. Even though I won't perform very well in the final exam, even though I may fail the GRE test in June, I don't want these to stuck me to appreciate the life. And I will do my best in the academics.
So afraid of being a loser in academics. That's probably why I'm so stressed out by the coming final. Everything will be ok, just need some relax and patience. As long as the revision goes as is planned, I will do fine. See what I've achieved last semester. How come I'm much more stress now. This is so not like me. Kai should be kind and hardworking and relax.
Thanks Chase, Noah, Phillip, Patrick, Mei, Ashley, Shirlie, Meng. I am weird a lot of time. But I love you guys. You guys give me light when I'm in the period seem to be the darkest.
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