Acting weird

Why am I not able to speak out my true feeling?

Maybe I am just in my talking mode. Too selfish sometimes I show up. Or maybe other people ask too much from me.

But I should at least let them know how I feel. But I cannot. I don't even know how I feel right now.

After the weird stuff, guilty comes up. but you know the point you said the word out, nothing can change it. It's settled already. Facts are remembered forever. People will learn and find out that I am selfish too, I don't have time to care about other people. I am just a jerk.

A night acting like a boy, a college boy.