hiding

心情不好的时候，就会一个人藏起来。
I hide me when I am low.

I don't even know why I suddenly get so frustrated. I even share this out to someone who I am not that familiar with. I think I may need some time to cool me down.

Tense. The school has started for over a week. I hate many courses, seriously. It is not because I hate study. I love study though, I just hate the way teachers deliver their lecture, assign the reading work, and the silence of the atmosphere. Students do not like talking here, pretty dumb. Even mainland students are not showing sort of friendliness. Chemical analysis is totally a joke. I cannot understand the harsh english in strong hong kong accent. Also the lecture notes help nothing but keep confusing myself. Dude, I got an A last semester in the quantitative analysis, but I am now totally lost in the math part of this course, what the hell is going on?

Environmental Biotechnology is another lecture that doesn't fit me well. The professor is talkative, very talkative actually. But his mind is so jumping that I cannot understand his word clearly. He always draws general and wide idea to tackle with tiny issue, such as how to dispose the treated sewage in Hong Kong. I mean it is such a big topic to draw, but his conclusion is always ended up with something like "we dump them into Kowloon bay, because the water there is even more smelly."

Or maybe I just HKBU. I love all the friends meeting here, I just hate BU.

Well I do enjoy some classes. The molecular biology is not very difficult, since I learn genetics very hard last year, so most of the principle and idea can be easily understood and reviewed. The reading assigned by the sociology class is simple, hopefully I can end reading them before the start of October. I need to save time to study for the harder courses, such as the environmental biotechnology.

Many people keep asking me these days why I am not in the final year. Basically because I am lazy. I am such a laid back person who do not like to be pushed forward. I love study, but I hate the education system in BU which is not flexible. University Information System sucks. All the courses registration must be done there, so if you fail to do the add/drop online then you are not supposed to sit in the class. I keep hearing someone complaining that he cannot get enrolled in the class because of the shit quota is full. Overload is not a good idea, never. Except you are really good at managing time, plus there is no conflict between all the classes you plan to take.

Hence, I need one more year to fulfill both my major degree and my minor degree. Imagine that I am in my final year, doing the final year project every day, attending major lectures, overloading some credits for minor degree. Then I have to stay at least 12 hours a day in the school. That means 60 hours per week, plus I have the chance to continue doing research during weekend. Then I don't have time hanging out with my friends. I also need to spare some time preparing for the GRE test. Too many things gather and my life will definitely explode, let alone I am now hiding because some sort of tense is accumulating.

I still have a lot to do. Beyond the school, I plan to go to gym, read the book In Quest of Jesus, watch the Friends Season 6, mandarin debate team, hanging out with friends, visiting some people that I care. A LOT. Life is a b***h and then you die. Enjoy it. Enjoy the tense. Enjoy the hiddenness.

Time to leave library, so I should stop typing these shit now. Tomorrow will be another day.