April is coming. This is the day of fooling, but I'm not fooling everyone.
After almost two hours drive, we finally arrived at Mercer around 2 a.m. Watching a game without Jeremy Lin is regretful, but the whole night was awesome. Cheers. Crowds. CNN. Sushi. Atlanta. Rainy. Fall asleep in the car two times, and woke up when Raymond arrived Roberts Hall.
Everything is silent. We got off the car, and walked back to our apartments. The 2-minute way is just as long and slow as lasting forever, maybe because I just thought about many thingg.
I could tell whether I'm happy or not, and luckily, I am.
It was such a illusion. How could I actually arrive here.
I feel I will lose something, and I may lose more if I don't write down something. It was just like yesterday that I closed the door of the study room, leaving CSC, and said to Jun:"March is coming."
I want to say these ASAP. I don't want to wait till the time of departure and say everything, although I know that is slowly coming, which make me feel afraid.
Thank you, all my friends in America. i learnt what is ambition, what is friendship, and what is love from you.
I haven't expected to meet you when I stepped out from the plane in Chicaco O'Hare International Airport, and now, I'm afraid of leaving you. That is life.
I've said I will try to come back two years later. But I'm afraid that after two years, you are no longer you, and I am no longer I.
So, I wrote these in memory of the time when you are you, and I am I.
It's a pleasant journey, it is a memorable journey.
4/1/2012
In memory of the exchange at Mercer.
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Study hard
The test for old testament is coming soon, and I feel that I have enough confidence to get another nice mark.
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
pretend to be strong
feel like being another person for some time. I'm not that strong as I imagine. Nothing special. Just reminding myself that when you feel exhausted, just say it.
Monday, March 12, 2012
Are they sort of same?
Just come up with a funny comparison during the shower. When reading Borg's book about the Bible, he emphasizes the stage of "Postcritical", which hear the story without criticism and accept it, regard it as truth though it may not be factually true.
Is the postcritical stage kind of similar with Mu(Nothing, none) in Buddism?
Just put the question here. It sounds like a question, may be it is not a question at all.
Is having tons of work to do this week, but just remind me to never lose the mind of thinking.
Is the postcritical stage kind of similar with Mu(Nothing, none) in Buddism?
Just put the question here. It sounds like a question, may be it is not a question at all.
Is having tons of work to do this week, but just remind me to never lose the mind of thinking.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Saturday, March 10, 2012
3/10 Thoughts after reading Latter Prophets
(1)Christianity affirms that people don't know God, and indeed they cannot know the
existence of it. Their faith in God comes from the long long history,
from reading Hebrew Bible stories.
(2)Prophets, as is mentioned in these paragraphs, are the people who speak on behalf of God. They can predict the future because God had taught them so. That is to say, they know some of God ( I doubted on how can they know God and how they affirm people about this fact).
(3)Prophets usually have trouble with those kings because prophets' prediction is usually bad for kings (kings do bad for people). Because prophets have faith in God, they dare to speak for social justice, rather than speak for the king, the elites, and the rich people. So, I appreciate this kind of 狐假虎威.
(2)Prophets, as is mentioned in these paragraphs, are the people who speak on behalf of God. They can predict the future because God had taught them so. That is to say, they know some of God ( I doubted on how can they know God and how they affirm people about this fact).
(3)Prophets usually have trouble with those kings because prophets' prediction is usually bad for kings (kings do bad for people). Because prophets have faith in God, they dare to speak for social justice, rather than speak for the king, the elites, and the rich people. So, I appreciate this kind of 狐假虎威.
expectation
it is true that time is endless, some day reoccur year after year. But in other words, those days occur only one time every year. for example, someone's birthday.
you may never know what he or she expects, but you shall suppose he or she expects something.
so, don't be so mean, that even the same day will come next year, you still choose to give him or her a surprise.
time passes. thing changes. don't let them feel disappointed at that point, and spend another year to expect, and leave you eventually.
say these to myself.
you may never know what he or she expects, but you shall suppose he or she expects something.
so, don't be so mean, that even the same day will come next year, you still choose to give him or her a surprise.
time passes. thing changes. don't let them feel disappointed at that point, and spend another year to expect, and leave you eventually.
say these to myself.
Friday, March 9, 2012
UC
a happy UC boy working in the fitness center. nothing to do, just picking up several bucks after the camping from Helen, Georgia. hehe.
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Ipad
I don't know why I need an Ipad.
I just notice that everyone is talking about Ipad. My classmate in SOC class is using Ipad. My professor is using Ipad as an example to illustrate the economic chain in globalization. My parents say Ipad is nice and I should get one. My friends are having Ipad.I saw Ipad everywhere.
So I bought one. What a crazy world.
I just notice that everyone is talking about Ipad. My classmate in SOC class is using Ipad. My professor is using Ipad as an example to illustrate the economic chain in globalization. My parents say Ipad is nice and I should get one. My friends are having Ipad.I saw Ipad everywhere.
So I bought one. What a crazy world.
Missing
The feeling of missing someone is like a chronic disease, which is just so hard to get rid of.
Everytime I undergo this, I just find myself awkwardly finding other things to do - just change my attention. Maybe it's kinda bad, maybe it's not.
Everytime I undergo this, I just find myself awkwardly finding other things to do - just change my attention. Maybe it's kinda bad, maybe it's not.
Motivation
I'm not such an optimistic person, I doubt a lot and get lost usually. However, I do have dreams, even if that may seem little and simple in others' eyes.
I like the friends I made here so much. I don't know whether it is I'm so fortunate, or they are so nice. They make up the best impression of US in my mind, which will drive me to be distinguished. At least, I won't get lost in persuing my ambition these two years.
How subtle this motivation is. How big this motivation is.
I like the friends I made here so much. I don't know whether it is I'm so fortunate, or they are so nice. They make up the best impression of US in my mind, which will drive me to be distinguished. At least, I won't get lost in persuing my ambition these two years.
How subtle this motivation is. How big this motivation is.
Monday, March 5, 2012
Immortal
Greek movies always evoke my imagination.
Deeds are immortal, while deeds of righteous are immortal and divine.
Deeds are immortal, while deeds of righteous are immortal and divine.
Sunday, March 4, 2012
From Hong Kong to Macon: Exchange Student Yukai Zou on His Experience in America.
1. Where's home for you?
I live in Shanghai. My family has
settled down there for more than ten years, and I've witnessed the vast changes
of it over the past dacade.
2. What made you decide to come to
America?
The biggest concern is to further my
study. My ambition is to be a phd in biology; and the United States is advanced
in biological science. So, I'd like to explore a little first, knowing how
people live and study in the US, which will facilitate me in the future when I
come here again, hopefully:) Another important motivation is that I want to
refresh my mind towards american culture by myself rather than by media.
3. What was the experience of coming
to America like?
It is really a thrill that I make
myself to such a nation that is so different from my motherland. Generally, the
environment in the US is clean, and there're many farmland areas and historic
sites in Georgia, which is so different from Shanghai and Hong Kong. People
talk in a friendly and faithful manners. I've made some awesome friends here;
without their help, I couldn't extend my footprint to so many funny places, nor
could I deepen my view about this diverse nation.
4. Have you faced any challenges
and/or confusions since you arrived?
The first confusion is the way
people greet. I was at a loss when the shop assistant said "How are you
doing" to me, because I'm not used to share my feeling with a stranger.
Julie, my advisor, explained to me that what they need is just a
"good" "not bad", which is exactly the same when Chinese
greet with each other saying "Have you eaten?"
One of the challenges I face is the
highly tense study. I was very ambitious of myself that I took four science
courses in the first semester, which soon overwhelmed me with tons of quizzes,
problem sets, exams, lab works and writings. I had to relieve myself, so I dropped
one of them later. Though biology is also taught in English in Hong Kong, the
study load is smaller, in which there is just one mid-term and one final for a
science class. The busy mode actually keeps me studying and asking questions,
which I’ve gradually overcome now.
5. What, if anything, surprised you
most about America?
One of the things that surprised me
a lot happened in the orientation. After watching the short drama about the
Mercer life, our O'group, “Swag is Global”, had a discussion outside the
Landale Hall about the sex issue. Branden, my peer advisor who is in HKBU now,
encouraged us to share our opinions, and there was a good discussion indeed;
but for me, it is my first time to talk about an embarrasing topic in front of
many people, so I kept quiet but listen carefully. This is probably my first
direct feeling towards the open mind of Americans.
6. In what way is American culture
most different from you own?
As is mentioned above, “open” is the
key point of American culture; you can choose to favor and believe anything you
accept, and you can speak out any opinions directly. The way people deal with
each other is simpler than that in Chinese society.
7. Do you have any advice for
students studying abroad?
Be observant. People may bahave and
think in a very different way: the way lecture is taught is different, the way
decline an invitation is different, the way people behave in being late to an
appointment is different, and the way people establish and maintain friendship
is different. All these reflect their personalities and the culture. The
observation not only broadens my view, but also refreshes my mind about many things
that I've taken for granted.
Be open. People may have plenty of
questions about you and your countries, e.g. how to pronounce your name
correctly; are there fortune cookies in China, etc. So, don't hesitate to share
your stories to them. Native people also have many stories and opinions towards
different topics; so, be an open-minded listener.
Be optimistic. Homesickness, culture
shock and pressure from study may trouble most international students a lot. I
remember that a friend told me during my hardest period in the US that life may
be different from expectation; we live and we learn. Hardship unseals what is
important and makes you grow faster; the difficulties will finally be the
valuable experience for your life. So, never give up.
8. What is the most challenging
thing about being in a new country?
Facing all the unknowns by oneself
is the most challenging thing for me. I don't know who I will meet with. I have
to face the study and bureaucracy with awkward English. I’m depressed when
receiving a unsealed parcel and do not know what to do; I feel annoying when
the hotline is busy; I have to spend a whole morning just to set up an online
bank, which I only need ten minutes in Hong Kong with a phone call. Fortunately,
I meet with so many nice people that I cannot list them all; they helped me buy
all the living stuff in the first day, apply the social security card, invite
me to their home, provide job for me and admire my work, drive me to the
airport, etc. My appreciation is simply beyond words.
9. What has been your best
experience in America so far?
There is just so much that I think
all of them are perfect. The nice experience recently is a long conversation
with some nice friends overnight. We asked and answered all kinds of questions,
from "What is your favorite food?" to "What is the thing that
you've done but you feel regretful?" I knew these guys more after the
talk, and I feel being closer to them, which I appreciate most.
10. Is going to school at Mercer a
lot different from going to school in your country?
There are some differences. Mercer
is in Macon where it is hard to go anywhere without a car. Hong Kong is a
highly packed international city where you can easily get to every corner using
public transportation. Mercer, as a result, is slower and quiet than Hong Kong
Baptist University. Moreover, many students are major in science and
engineering, and there are a lot of pre-medicine, pre-pharmacy students in
Mercer; in Hong Kong Baptist University, most students take business and
journalism. Last but not the least, going to school at Mercer, I think, is more
challenging because there are so many assessments; professors are serious about
the schedule, students like interrupting and asking questions during the class,
and the study environment is very competitive.
promise
have a safe trip tomorrow, have a fun spring break. some chances never return, so, hope I can do what I've said.
Thursday, March 1, 2012
It's already March.
"February is over."
Time is passing so fast.
And, soon I'll be back to Hong Kong. Deeply afraid and want the retard.
Time is passing so fast.
And, soon I'll be back to Hong Kong. Deeply afraid and want the retard.
Caffeine
I don't drink that much caffeine until I come to US. Coffee, energy drink, Coke, Dr.Pepper, all kinds of things that can extent my attention towards late midnight, or early early morning. However, I clearly know that my productivity at night is low, that I cannot focus on the work well at midnight. Tons of hours passed with little done, which makes things worse.
When this comes to a habit, though I still have no addiction to caffeine, I've already addicted to cheating myself.
I always think it's time to say goodbye with it, it is as hard as say goodbye to my family, every friend I loves; it is as easy as stepping forward to the boarding area without even turning my head.
Living paradoxically. Probably Laurel is right, that my mind sometimes contradicts my soul.
When this comes to a habit, though I still have no addiction to caffeine, I've already addicted to cheating myself.
I always think it's time to say goodbye with it, it is as hard as say goodbye to my family, every friend I loves; it is as easy as stepping forward to the boarding area without even turning my head.
Living paradoxically. Probably Laurel is right, that my mind sometimes contradicts my soul.
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