Always, there are too many things that I wanna write down, but do not know what to begin with, and how to make the decision to select.
Or maybe it is better not saying anything, until the point when I really got a mind, then open the blog and make it out.
I am way too enjoy being lazy. There is discussion for presentation tomorrow, a paper to work on, a lab report to be submitted next friday. but I am still procrastinating.
Debate team won the 1st runner up in the competition, and we had a wonderful night on Saturday.
Time passes.
I still attend some events of the debate team, but I know that I am way too far away from them. I've already settled down my mind on what to pursue, I have tons to work on such as those presentation and paperwork, I have not joined in the debate for almost a year, and now I do not know how to be a debater.
Debate team, a symbol that matters a lot in my university life, is now leaving me. I can sense it, and I cannot control it.
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
outline for term paper
gonna figure this out tonight. no procrastination.
Keep reading. Finding new examples. No laziness.
Keep reading. Finding new examples. No laziness.
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Long Tuesday. Any longer?
I hate 8:30 classes. Feeling tired sitting in the classroom, just getting a 3-hour sleep last night working on a lab report. But fortunately, I found my student ID card back - it was laying in my pencil box lol and I did not even notice that. Anyway, no need to waste extra 100 dollars for a stupid card. Kai is technically "recognizable" across the campus again :)
The Quantitative PCR assay learnt from the Molecular Biology lecture is very cool. I may apply it a lot in my final year project, analyzing the amount of miRNA and its regulation on dopamine level of zebrafish. Dr.Xia's explanation is clear enough. I think he has made big progress on delivering lectures, which makes me feel comfortable. Sometimes I don't want to feel stupid understanding tons of boring facts and mechanisms of biology. I need to know how it applies to the life and what kinda problem it targets for.
And for the competition, yes I think I would like to give a shot on it. Though many friends do not think that is a good idea since its biased towards local students, I don't want to miss any chance to practice the english skills and presentation skills. This leads to my way to become a cool PhD and professor. Sounds like a strong ambition, but now I have a long way to go. Tonight maybe I need to pick up two lists of GRE vocabulary. In addition, if the competition things are on my schedule, it is time to book the railway ticket back Hong Kong from Shanghai, which I think may be not later than Jan.3rd. Lab also needs me during that time. Kinda foresee a booming second semester.
Hope the global cafe tonight goes well. Haven't seen many international friends for a long time, maybe tonight there would be some funny chatting. But after that, study will occupy the whole night. So won't put too much expectation on that stuff, everything will be fine.
Hope this Tuesday could be longer so that more stuff on my checklist would be ticked up. At least right now I have a thrill to do that.
The Quantitative PCR assay learnt from the Molecular Biology lecture is very cool. I may apply it a lot in my final year project, analyzing the amount of miRNA and its regulation on dopamine level of zebrafish. Dr.Xia's explanation is clear enough. I think he has made big progress on delivering lectures, which makes me feel comfortable. Sometimes I don't want to feel stupid understanding tons of boring facts and mechanisms of biology. I need to know how it applies to the life and what kinda problem it targets for.
And for the competition, yes I think I would like to give a shot on it. Though many friends do not think that is a good idea since its biased towards local students, I don't want to miss any chance to practice the english skills and presentation skills. This leads to my way to become a cool PhD and professor. Sounds like a strong ambition, but now I have a long way to go. Tonight maybe I need to pick up two lists of GRE vocabulary. In addition, if the competition things are on my schedule, it is time to book the railway ticket back Hong Kong from Shanghai, which I think may be not later than Jan.3rd. Lab also needs me during that time. Kinda foresee a booming second semester.
Hope the global cafe tonight goes well. Haven't seen many international friends for a long time, maybe tonight there would be some funny chatting. But after that, study will occupy the whole night. So won't put too much expectation on that stuff, everything will be fine.
Hope this Tuesday could be longer so that more stuff on my checklist would be ticked up. At least right now I have a thrill to do that.
Monday, November 12, 2012
One day I will know
No pushing into anything, just let it happens naturally as much as possible.
I don't care her any more it is no difference from strangers
I know it is hard. It is hard to put down some sweet memories, but there are more bitterness that I carry at the same time. she is not happy when seeing me posting status, and I clearly know that.
me neither.
less bothering. make it more relieve. Life has to move forward and I know I cannot stop.
she does not want to admit how naive she is, then I do that. I know maybe I am the guy who is naive from the beginning.
Everytime I told myself try to be an adult on this. Well, in the topic of love, I have too much to learn that I am still a kid right now.
I don't care her any more it is no difference from strangers
I know it is hard. It is hard to put down some sweet memories, but there are more bitterness that I carry at the same time. she is not happy when seeing me posting status, and I clearly know that.
me neither.
less bothering. make it more relieve. Life has to move forward and I know I cannot stop.
she does not want to admit how naive she is, then I do that. I know maybe I am the guy who is naive from the beginning.
Everytime I told myself try to be an adult on this. Well, in the topic of love, I have too much to learn that I am still a kid right now.
Sunday, November 4, 2012
nothing to do
That is probably why I get anxious. I have nothing to do currently, and I have no motivation to find out something to do. When I am thus quiet, I think about those stupid things I did before.
Who freaking cares? It's just some embarrasing seconds. When you have no words to utter, just smile and deliver wishes.Nobody hates that.
Who freaking cares? It's just some embarrasing seconds. When you have no words to utter, just smile and deliver wishes.Nobody hates that.
anxiety
Although it is quiet in the room, I feel anxiety accumulating.
All works will be done finally, what am I suppose to worry about?
No having a bright future? Losing all the friends? Nervous thinking about how people respond to my dumbness?
What else could I do to improve my communitation with people?
Nothing seems to become better.
All works will be done finally, what am I suppose to worry about?
No having a bright future? Losing all the friends? Nervous thinking about how people respond to my dumbness?
What else could I do to improve my communitation with people?
Nothing seems to become better.
talking
no one is willing to talk to me now. I am way too self-involved. I don't know how to start a conversation, how to respond to one's admiring.
what am I suppose to do? I'd better shut up?
Maybe it is because of the tense stuff accumulating these days. I spent a whole weekend working on a 20-page-long lab report. And now it is still far from finish. There is a little worrying.
what am I suppose to do? I'd better shut up?
Maybe it is because of the tense stuff accumulating these days. I spent a whole weekend working on a 20-page-long lab report. And now it is still far from finish. There is a little worrying.
Friday, November 2, 2012
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